Hello and welcome!

I am Hajar from Malaysia. I am a believer, dreamer, storyteller and healer. Currently, I work as a Content Strategist in a property investment company.

However, apart from online marketing, I love to have open, deep, honest and vulnerable conversations with people about personal growth, emotions, mental health and spirituality. Which is why I’m here.

Before I am where I am right now,
Before I accept my wholesome me,
Before I start to learn to love myself,
Before I value vulnerability as a strength,
Before I reach out for help to others,
Before I learn to speak up what is,
Before I get out to grab a spark of hope,
Before I allow myself to feel the emotions,

I just want you to know that I’m the same as you. 

There was a lady who…

  • Wished for approval from the parents.
  • Hunted success and validation from others.
  • Felt never good enough inside.
  • Felt unloved, alone and lonely.
  • Felt unsafe and insecure.
  • Doubted her capability and potential.
  • Struggled with judgement from others.
  • Had a lot of conflicts with her inner self. 

Even though I’ve been known as an extrovert, happy-go-lucky and ambitious person, I never knew that I would suffer from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, stress, fatigue and physical pain for 6 years.

I’ve been in the dark ocean of thought, I didn’t want to wake up in the morning, I had no savings, I experienced insomnia, lost my appetite, felt numb and wished to die. I didn’t feel joy in my work. I felt hopeless.

Then, what makes me feel alive again?

It started with I came across someone’s video online while I was in bed. It became a spark of snowball effect that led to my healing journey where I found myself back and my purpose. 

Thanks to my friends who helped me a lot and my parents too, who grew along the way together with me. 

My journey – I can’t say it’s a smooth ride but I’m so grateful for it. Alhamdulillah. I believe that no matter what happens in life, HOPE matters. Because hope can give you a sense of light and make you continue your journey with greater belief. 

If you suffer from depression, that’s okay.
If you have anxiety, that’s okay.
If you are lost, that’s okay.
If you struggle with something, that’s okay.
If you are not okay, that’s okay.
If you are in fear, that’s okay.
Your problem is real, your feeling is valid. 

It’s okay you have it all. Cause in reality, negative emotions, bad situations, problems and fears are part of life. Pain is inevitable. They are bound to happen. Just that, it’s not okay for you if you choose to stay that way for a long time and it crushes you. 

Of course, major life events like financial issues, divorce, rejection, death and the loss of a job are the most big causes of stress, but studies confirmed that so-called micro-stressors are the ones that we need to watch out for.

“It’s the day-to-day living that wears you out.” 

As for me, it is so true! In fact, minor daily stresses can affect well-being, not only by having direct effects on emotional and physical functioning… But also by piling up over days to create persistent irritations, frustrations and overloads that may result in more serious cases. 

Thus, overcoming the hassles of day-to-day living requires little resilience. This is the reason why I create a home for you. I hope my writing can empower your emotions + soul and bring an impact on your growth in life. 

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